2014年1月16日星期四
《那一夜，恐惧死了》（写在《年十四，灯佑苏丹街》后）
《那一夜，恐惧死了》（写在《年十四，灯佑苏丹街》后）
有只猴子，在河边树上悠荡，突然发现河里有条老鱼，猴子觉得老鱼很可怜，很快就会被溺死，想尽办法把老鱼从河里救上来，然后把它丢弃在河边，看着老鱼奄奄一息。很快的，引来一群苍蝇，接着是另一群乌鸦，不久，一大群野猫也出现了……
这条老鱼仿佛就是我们宝贵的苏丹街。忘了提起，其实，还有一群人在树下……他们就是一群牺牲睡眠时间努力守护、捍卫苏丹街的艺术文化工作者和平民百姓，他们很努力的想尽办法保住这条老鱼。
被整容的百龄阿婆曾被调往马六甲服务5年。听说很多年前，在古城门口的圣心修道院前就是大海，后来填土计划，马六甲的土地“扩大”了。再后来修院前的大海被片青绿大草场替代，而我住在那里时，每天傍晚都有各族青年到那里踢足球或放风筝。离开马六甲后5年再回去，尽入眼帘的是购物广场和车辆。再后来，每一次到古城都充满无限难过和些许的愤怒；马六甲就有如几百岁的老婆婆被强拖去整容了：18岁的脸，20岁的皮肤，21岁的纹身，22岁的身材，24岁的脸部护理和化装……还有被硬挤，逼套上华丽、昂贵、高级绸缎的旗袍里，还要继续让她受罪，把那双历经风霜，布满粗茧的大板脚套上比三寸金莲还长几分寸，即尖又细的高跟窄鞋。马六甲阿婆的岁数是她全身装扮合计啊！
她们的曾经1983年，马六甲州政府计划把三宝山铲平发展为商业地段；1991年，柔佛古庙山门被强拆之事；2001年，征用广东及福建义山约5百英亩的土地.....延续不断，接二连三的掠夺事件，全靠平民的力量保住了。
当然，平民势低声弱，也曾失守，无法捍卫某些被强势掠夺的人文古迹。2009年，双溪毛糯的麻风病院（希望之谷），它在强行指示下被拆了。拥有70多年历史的麻风病院是全世界第二大的麻风病人社群区，一个自供自足的社群，被蹂躏了。
2010年5月21日晚上10时，半山芭监狱部分建筑开始被拆除，告别了那夜，留给历史，断定了115年历史的半山芭监狱，394公尺高的城墙终于被击垮，从此以10年速度重新规划，发展这片土地。英国殖民政府于1895年建立该监狱，它算是吉隆坡最古老的地标之一，X型的内部建筑和牢狱所涂画的绿色围墙，被列入世界纪录，监狱是这都会闹市的最大特色。历史会记得2010年5月21日晚上10时，那一夜，全城默哀！
一个是医院，另一个是监狱；前者为疗伤，后者为惩罚与赎罪。这是充满意识形态的斗争和象徵意义。她们都是吉隆坡人的集体记忆。
2011年的今天，因发展，带动经济与旅游之名，城市发展计划蓝图里把捷运道计划带进苏丹街，她面临同样的命运威胁，人民的声音，上层听而不闻；平民的呻吟，掌权者闻而不悯；当声音无效，呻吟无衷的时日，沉默不再是金，必须让行动说话了。有关当局以为要刺激苏丹街的发展，带来商业利益与旅游景点，可是她迫切需要的是一把可以辅助她的拐杖（修复与保存计划，而非外表的美化与装修），也不是给她滑板（捷运计划），以为是帮她可以加快脚步，跟上时代的步伐。这个年代，沉默不再是金，该发言时保持沉默就是罪大的帮凶。智者自智这个资讯发达的年代给人提供了很多知识，也欺骗了人类，给了人一个假象，以为知识就是力量，可是知识让你我知道很多，唯有智慧教导我们知道了以后，如何分辨对错与是非；“对的事，做就对了”。借用监真大和尚的经典名句：天下的事，很少有一次就能完成的。所以尽管无常来临，对的事做就对了。
改变始于我：我只是完成了人本的权利与义务记得《东邪西毒》里有句话：“当你不能够再拥有，你唯一可以做的，就是令自己不要忘记……”。捍卫和抢救苏丹街的各类活动，是否可以改变苏丹街的命运，至今无法知晓，我们唯一可以做的，就是唤起民间的集体記憶（言，己= 以自己的言语；心，意 = 用心去意会）；“你唯一可以做的，就是令自己不要忘记……”
当我醒来，发现世间还有很多事不是理所当然的，知道什么是属于自己的，我才开始很努力去争取，用心守护，紧张捍卫，积极抢救……失去历史，无法复制，失去的，不纯粹是那残缺斑斓的古物，而是世世代代的经历的血汗苦难，故事与集体回忆。
身为修道人，修女的职务该是祈祷；在于世界却不属于它。可是耶稣也曾要求我们：几时你们对身边一个兄弟、姐妹所做的就是对我所做。耶稣也教导基督徒要为社会的正义与和平作证……是他促使我在那一夜，把恐惧砸死街头。
行动：2012年1月1日：7年的长发被剪短了，只为苏丹街的将来献上祈愿。参与抢救苏丹街活动：戴上写着《天佑苏丹街》(God bless Jalan Sultan)的脸谱，就在《福音堂》教堂篱笆外的街边，摆了高脚藤椅，还有一批年轻人的协助，准备了百多张的红宣纸，毛笔和墨汁，现场挥毫，那夜，不纯粹是一场书法表演，而是一个懦弱灵魂的祈福。后来，还和其他宗教人士一起为苏丹街祈福。
从此，车里几把雨伞都写上了：Save Jalan Sultan, 还有《守护苏丹街：捍卫文化遗产，人民的集体记忆》；决定以伞说故事，让更多人了解苏丹街的苦难。
还有包含很多祈祷的书签与小卡，写着：《守护苏丹街：捍卫文化遗产，人民的集体记忆》，Save Jalan Sultan, heritage and memories of the people. 仅借此小卡说故事，让更多人了解苏丹街是大家的。修女们每天集体为这事项祈祷。
后记1722年北美印地安部落的聯合宣言：“我們做每一件事時，都必須考慮到它對我們之後七個世代的子孫，及其居住的環境所可能造成的影響”。
同样，我们今天所享用的也曾是我们七个世代祖先，甚至更久远的世代，给我们守护和捍卫，才得保存下来的。
今天是苏丹街 明天是老街 后天是古街 有一天是你街 苏丹街的今天随时会是你,我,他的明天... 理所当然成了争议...
今天是苏丹街 明天是老街 后天是古街 有一天是你街 苏丹街的今天随时会是你,我,他的明天... 理所当然成了争议...
那一夜 恐惧死了!
那一夜 恐惧死了!
年十四 灯佑苏丹街 后来你听我说 几时有关当局才会听到人民说呢? 苏丹街是老人啊, 她需要的是一把拐杖, 不是滑板,她玩不起...
年十四 灯佑苏丹街 后来你听我说 几时有关当局才会听到人民说呢? 苏丹街是老人啊, 她需要的是一把拐杖, 不是滑板,她玩不起...
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年十四 灯佑苏丹街 今夜 听 你说 我说
年十四 灯佑苏丹街 今夜 听 你说 我说
期待今夜...
期待今夜...
终于...
终于...
守护苏丹街 拒绝稀土厂
守护苏丹街 拒绝稀土厂
守护苏丹街 反对稀土厂
守护苏丹街 反对稀土厂
《今年，你的耶稣在那里诞生了？》
《今年，你的耶稣在那里诞生了？》
听说：圣诞节庆祝耶稣的生日，可是寿星公不是他；而是圣诞老人，圣诞树，圣诞大餐，圣诞礼物，圣诞派队，圣诞假期，圣诞装饰，圣诞……除了是耶稣的生日。
后来再听说：原来有3个圣诞节，过去，现在，还有将来；过去的圣诞节就是耶稣诞生的日子，将来的圣诞节是耶稣在末日再度来临的时日，而现在的圣诞节就是每天当我们去接纳和爱身边任何人时，就是圣诞节了，因为圣诞节的真正意义就是：圣言成了血肉，居住在我们中。
为此，过去和将来的圣诞节仿佛对我们很遥远，而更贴近生活的圣诞节应该是现在，是每一天，几时我们的心中有耶稣，有爱，那里就是耶稣的诞生了。
实在很好奇，通常我们会如何庆祝圣诞节？
这些年也体验不少身边朋友很努力，很热心，很有爱的庆祝圣诞节……
有不少的家庭或团体都会在这个节日拜访安老院，残缺院，孤儿院，福利中心等等。也有一些组织为小孩子举办圣诞节聚会，另一些也把圣诞节的糖果礼物转换为学校制服，书包，文具等等，更有一些花更多的心思邀请有需要的人，把生活所需写在卡上，装入信封里，然后把它挂在圣诞树上，任由各个家庭“领养”，准备信封里所注明的礼物，买了，包好，写上名字，放在圣诞树下，圣诞节当天就可以领取他们所期待的圣诞礼物。
有位老太太在几年前就开始了她家庭庆祝圣诞节的传统，而且还保持至今：家人，孩子媳妇，女儿女婿，孙子们都会在圣诞节要买圣诞礼物的钱收集，然后再圣诞节期间捐献给有需要的人士。而且，把所收到的圣诞礼物也都捐献给福利中心。她分享家人对这很有意义的庆祝方式感到开心，圣诞节是活的，因为，他们在人间散播爱。
去年，遇到另一个家庭，他们决定每年圣诞节，全家人亲自准备圣诞大餐给他们所认识的外劳享用，今年他们扩大邀请，每个人可带领一个家人或朋友出席。他们还会每年这样的庆祝圣诞节。
曾经遇过很低调的慈善人家，他们每年都会静悄悄的领养几个比较贫穷的孩子，帮忙他们全年的教育费用，而他们唯一的条件是：这些孩子将来工作，有经济能力时，同样去领养那些需要教育辅助的学生。
还有其他很有创意，很有意义，很实际的庆祝圣诞节……
或许是宽恕一个人，可能是我们最亲的家人。
也可能是和多年不能看着对方的眼睛，用心说话的亲友，开始向对方问好。
可能是给邻居一个善意的点头，微笑。
也许是给友族送上真诚的祈祷和祝福。
拿下对外族的偏见和敌视。
放慢脚步，和阿公，婆婆，家人谈天，无所事事闲聊。
停下脚步，听听小孩的声音。
闭上眼睛，细细聆听大自然的美声：风声，雨声，空气声，笑声，鸟声，太阳声，呼吸声，任何的气、息都是天主的临在……
今年，我们给耶稣，马利亚和若瑟所准备的马槽是在那里呢？今年耶稣会以什么形象出现呢？你可知耶稣喜欢一乔装出现？因为他说：你们对我一个最小的兄弟/姐妹所作的，就是对我做。
圣诞节可以这样华丽光纤，却是空虚缪幻。
圣诞节也可以如此简单，却是丰富，充满爱，祝福满满的：只是一言一语，可以是无言无语，只要是有爱，有和谐，有宽容，有接纳，有何平……耶稣就诞生了，就是圣诞节了。
今年圣诞节将是无言无语，只有把爱带给人……
当你我不在意彼此的肤色而安心握手时，我们就是在拥抱圣诞节了。
你，会如何庆祝圣诞节呢？
把耶稣带给人？
或是把人带给耶稣？
2011年12月16日星期五
（圣诞节9日敬礼）
2011年11月1日星期二
《女人四季冷暖情》（1）《春之美》
（前言）
今次，我要写关于女人。
4年前，无奈走入这片教土。
4年后，坦然看到世间女人的四季冷暖情。
虽然我国没有春夏秋冬四季之分，但是，生活里就是充满四季的无常冷暖，有情，无情的美丽与丑陋，之间，太多，太多……说不完，数不尽。
因此我写《春之美》，《夏之炎》，《秋之寒》还有《冬之冻》。
这些都是女人的故事。
（1）《春之美》
很久以前就想写她。
她，聪明，能干，积极，热心，专注，漂亮……却缺少机会；为此，她紧随着主耶稣。教育不多，知识却是满满的，尤其是在行善与爱德服务。
耶稣说：你们对我一个小兄弟/姐妹所做的，就是对我做。这句话就是她生活的目标与动机。
堂区里，她参与圣母军，膳食组，插花……这就是她赞美光荣天主的方式。
第一次看到她，忙着教堂筹款活动，嘉年华会；任劳任怨，谦虚静默服务，最低下的工作，她开心微笑完成。早晨忙到晚上，还是她和几个妇女在忙着。听到的是爽朗的笑声而非埋怨声。
以后再见她，多是在医院里，不是她住院，而是她去探访病人。
我如今熟悉吉隆坡几间主要的医院，也该归功于她。
那一年，她和几位妇女策划了简单的圣诞节午餐给双溪毛糯麻风院里的几个年迈人士，与其说是聚餐，不如当做是聆听他们每个人的过去，分享当年的故事。我忘不了当天的脸容，看到他们皮表笑容底下，深埋心中的苦与忧。生活仿佛对他们很刻薄。
后来，持续地我们到双溪毛糯医院，政府医院，班待医院，马大医院，梳邦医药中心，鹰阁医院，士拉央医院等等探访病人。途中，我们分享生活，信仰，还有祈祷。
另一次，最刻骨铭心的是在同善医院。有位来自怡保的年轻教友，患上癌症；在那里住了几个月，由她母亲照顾。当她第一天探访她们后，就安排她们的所有需要：把她们的衣服带回家去洗，每天中午载送孩子上学时，准备一份午餐，一份晚餐给病者的母亲，煮凉水，炖补汤，都装在保温瓶里；风雨无阻，连续几个月，而且完全免费，不求任何回报。
后来她甚至想让母女在她的公寓免费住下，方便她们看病。我很好奇以为她们彼此认识的，才发现原来她们之前都不认识，而她那么无条件，无私的付出，我看到的是她让圣言成了血肉，居住在我们中间：你们对我一个小兄弟/姐妹所做的，就是对我做。而耶稣的话语在她生活里活现了。
她总觉得自己知识不如人，为此，很努力参与培训，研读圣经，参加讲座，避静，看到她在各个方面有显著的提升与进步。她看顾先生孩子生活一切，打理家务，其余的时间就是服侍他人。
她开着8人座休闲车，却不是为休闲，而是为穷人，为福传，为探病，为侍奉耶稣。而且，每次为亡者，为病人祈祷，她都希望可以载满更多人一起去。
最近又才得知，她及先生都定期的，默默的在经济上帮助很多有需要的人：孤单无助的病人，无亲无故的老人，贫穷的家庭与学生；还有持续的拜访安老院，孤儿院，而他们所做都是跨越宗教，种族与语言。
也许，行善久了，人会累，遇到挑战会逐渐埋怨，开始冷漠，慢慢放弃，而她却是充满笑容，在逆境里更加积极祈祷，继续努力，排除所有障碍，生活更充实更充满主爱；她常是容光焕发，春风满面，主是她的原始与总结，在她的精彩生活里，我看到主居住在我们中间。
看到她，看到春之美！
认识她，认识生命美！
学习她，体验主之美
周莉娜修女
2011年4月17日
（圣枝主日）
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今次，我要写关于女人。
4年前，无奈走入这片教土。
4年后，坦然看到世间女人的四季冷暖情。
虽然我国没有春夏秋冬四季之分，但是，生活里就是充满四季的无常冷暖，有情，无情的美丽与丑陋，之间，太多，太多……说不完，数不尽。
因此我写《春之美》，《夏之炎》，《秋之寒》还有《冬之冻》。
这些都是女人的故事。
（1）《春之美》
很久以前就想写她。
她，聪明，能干，积极，热心，专注，漂亮……却缺少机会；为此，她紧随着主耶稣。教育不多，知识却是满满的，尤其是在行善与爱德服务。
耶稣说：你们对我一个小兄弟/姐妹所做的，就是对我做。这句话就是她生活的目标与动机。
堂区里，她参与圣母军，膳食组，插花……这就是她赞美光荣天主的方式。
第一次看到她，忙着教堂筹款活动，嘉年华会；任劳任怨，谦虚静默服务，最低下的工作，她开心微笑完成。早晨忙到晚上，还是她和几个妇女在忙着。听到的是爽朗的笑声而非埋怨声。
以后再见她，多是在医院里，不是她住院，而是她去探访病人。
我如今熟悉吉隆坡几间主要的医院，也该归功于她。
那一年，她和几位妇女策划了简单的圣诞节午餐给双溪毛糯麻风院里的几个年迈人士，与其说是聚餐，不如当做是聆听他们每个人的过去，分享当年的故事。我忘不了当天的脸容，看到他们皮表笑容底下，深埋心中的苦与忧。生活仿佛对他们很刻薄。
后来，持续地我们到双溪毛糯医院，政府医院，班待医院，马大医院，梳邦医药中心，鹰阁医院，士拉央医院等等探访病人。途中，我们分享生活，信仰，还有祈祷。
另一次，最刻骨铭心的是在同善医院。有位来自怡保的年轻教友，患上癌症；在那里住了几个月，由她母亲照顾。当她第一天探访她们后，就安排她们的所有需要：把她们的衣服带回家去洗，每天中午载送孩子上学时，准备一份午餐，一份晚餐给病者的母亲，煮凉水，炖补汤，都装在保温瓶里；风雨无阻，连续几个月，而且完全免费，不求任何回报。
后来她甚至想让母女在她的公寓免费住下，方便她们看病。我很好奇以为她们彼此认识的，才发现原来她们之前都不认识，而她那么无条件，无私的付出，我看到的是她让圣言成了血肉，居住在我们中间：你们对我一个小兄弟/姐妹所做的，就是对我做。而耶稣的话语在她生活里活现了。
她总觉得自己知识不如人，为此，很努力参与培训，研读圣经，参加讲座，避静，看到她在各个方面有显著的提升与进步。她看顾先生孩子生活一切，打理家务，其余的时间就是服侍他人。
她开着8人座休闲车，却不是为休闲，而是为穷人，为福传，为探病，为侍奉耶稣。而且，每次为亡者，为病人祈祷，她都希望可以载满更多人一起去。
最近又才得知，她及先生都定期的，默默的在经济上帮助很多有需要的人：孤单无助的病人，无亲无故的老人，贫穷的家庭与学生；还有持续的拜访安老院，孤儿院，而他们所做都是跨越宗教，种族与语言。
也许，行善久了，人会累，遇到挑战会逐渐埋怨，开始冷漠，慢慢放弃，而她却是充满笑容，在逆境里更加积极祈祷，继续努力，排除所有障碍，生活更充实更充满主爱；她常是容光焕发，春风满面，主是她的原始与总结，在她的精彩生活里，我看到主居住在我们中间。
看到她，看到春之美！
认识她，认识生命美！
学习她，体验主之美
周莉娜修女
2011年4月17日
（圣枝主日）
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《女人四季冷暖情》（2）《夏之炎》
《女人四季冷暖情》
（前言）
今次，我要写关于女人。
4年前，无奈走入这片教土。
4年后，坦然看到世间女人的四季冷暖情。
虽然我国没有春夏秋冬四季之分，但是，生活里就是充满四季的无常冷暖，有情，无情的美丽与丑陋，之间，太多，太多……说不完，数不尽。
因此我写《春之美》，《夏之炎》，《秋之寒》还有《冬之冻》。
这些都是女人的故事。
（2）《夏之炎》
认识她是在6年前，在一个单亲妈妈的聚餐会上。
那天，大约有15位女人在场，而我只认识主人，是她邀请我去的。
那时，我还很年轻。她们都可做我姐姐或妈妈。她们当中有华人，印裔及混种人。有天主教徒，基督徒，兴都教徒及无神论者。我们唯一的共同点是：我们都是女人，都是单身。
而她，那天过后，我们成了很好的朋友。
后来她告诉我：
那天中午，看到你出现在我们的聚餐会，其实我心里很反抗：为什么这个女人出现在这里，现在我想骂粗话都得忍住，在她背后才放出来。唉呀！她这个年轻修女，懂什么男女感情，婚姻，单亲家庭……她能帮我们什么……
后来，我问了她的禁忌问题（后来才知道的！）：你是什么人？
也忘了当时她是如何回答的。后来她才告诉我，当天她没有“火爆”，“刻薄”对待我的问题是因为我用槟城福建华和她谈天。以后我们彼此更熟悉时，和她出去，别人问起她的禁忌问题时，她总会提高声量：我是马来西亚人啦！
原来她爸爸是华人，妈妈是印度人。她受英文教育，说得一口流利的英语，马来语，话语，还有广府话，槟城福建话，朝洲话，客家话……而她皮肤却是印裔靓丽的黑，头发也是靓丽的卷，今年她已经66岁，是个退休的老师。
从学校退休后，她全力参与教会慈善事工：帮助单亲家庭，协助癌症病患者和照顾病患的家人亲戚，给邻居贫穷孩子免费补习数学和英文，拜访病人……
后来有一天她述说她自己的故事：
当年，她还未认识天主，很年轻，刚出来教书。认识个男人，不久就结婚了。才知道他是赌徒酒鬼。维持不到1年的婚姻是场噩梦，她来得及逃出来，可是却流产了，从此，她无法再有孩子。
多年以后，她认识了另一个男人，比她年轻8岁，他们结婚，过着幸福美满的生活。维持了10多年，没有孩子，是对模范恩爱夫妻。直到那一年，他被调往都市任职，就在那里买了公寓，而她因为执教，继续留在小镇。每个周末他回来相聚，生活还是幸福快乐的，距离反而让他们增加思念！
后来，她的好友换工到都市去，她过于信任好朋友，提议让她到他们的公寓住下，可以省下生活费。谁知如此的提议却改变了她的后半生。当她知道事实真相时，她深爱的丈夫带着她的好友，还有他们的孩子及她肚子里的第二胎祈求她成全他们，原谅他们……为了孩子，她成全了他们，但是她还深爱着他，他也是如此告诉她的。
同一个时候，她被诊断得了癌症！这突如其来的各方面打击，仿佛世界末日，使她重新调整自己，她给了自己一些时间与空间；在身、心、灵上寻找更深的体会与耐力；在折磨里体会生命的意义，在她仿佛失去一切的当儿，她拥有了一切，天主找到她，而她拥有了天主！
今天，她有充分的理由，很好的藉口继续抚摸，舔触自己的伤口，而她选择了宽恕，接受与爱。她成了负伤的治疗者，认识她的这些年，我看到她在日常生活里替别人抚伤，平凡的动作却让人看到她闪烁的大爱：
• 被家人，孩子放弃，抛弃的癌症病患，她会给他们特别准备事物，载送他们到医院诊疗。
• 给单亲妈妈介绍工作。
• 陪伴被雇主忽略而病危的印尼女佣，女佣临终感激她的陪伴大恩：我们是陌生人，你却好像妈妈般照顾我，我无以回报啊！
• 任何时候，从外地或小镇到大医院治疗，需要住宿时，她都开放门户收留他们。
• 曾经有位很年轻的癌症女病患，被逼锯了一支脚，父母无法陪伴她，是她安排朋友，又陪伴载送她上山回家。
• 又有几次，一些很穷的癌症病患去世了，她亲自替她们洗涤身体，穿衣，安排后事。
• 还有，靠她仅有的退休金，她还是省吃俭用，只为给身边的穷孩子多一些教育费。
她没有孩子，却是桃李满天下。她的故事，精彩的生活，快乐的日子……源自于耶稣，她生活的开始与终结；耶稣是她生命的泉源活水，她可以爱，因为她认识耶稣，她只想每一个人也认识耶稣，藉着她的平凡活出超凡的爱。
看到她，看到夏之炎！
认识她，认识生命艳！
学习她，体验主之颜！
2011年5月8日
（母亲节）
（前言）
今次，我要写关于女人。
4年前，无奈走入这片教土。
4年后，坦然看到世间女人的四季冷暖情。
虽然我国没有春夏秋冬四季之分，但是，生活里就是充满四季的无常冷暖，有情，无情的美丽与丑陋，之间，太多，太多……说不完，数不尽。
因此我写《春之美》，《夏之炎》，《秋之寒》还有《冬之冻》。
这些都是女人的故事。
（2）《夏之炎》
认识她是在6年前，在一个单亲妈妈的聚餐会上。
那天，大约有15位女人在场，而我只认识主人，是她邀请我去的。
那时，我还很年轻。她们都可做我姐姐或妈妈。她们当中有华人，印裔及混种人。有天主教徒，基督徒，兴都教徒及无神论者。我们唯一的共同点是：我们都是女人，都是单身。
而她，那天过后，我们成了很好的朋友。
后来她告诉我：
那天中午，看到你出现在我们的聚餐会，其实我心里很反抗：为什么这个女人出现在这里，现在我想骂粗话都得忍住，在她背后才放出来。唉呀！她这个年轻修女，懂什么男女感情，婚姻，单亲家庭……她能帮我们什么……
后来，我问了她的禁忌问题（后来才知道的！）：你是什么人？
也忘了当时她是如何回答的。后来她才告诉我，当天她没有“火爆”，“刻薄”对待我的问题是因为我用槟城福建华和她谈天。以后我们彼此更熟悉时，和她出去，别人问起她的禁忌问题时，她总会提高声量：我是马来西亚人啦！
原来她爸爸是华人，妈妈是印度人。她受英文教育，说得一口流利的英语，马来语，话语，还有广府话，槟城福建话，朝洲话，客家话……而她皮肤却是印裔靓丽的黑，头发也是靓丽的卷，今年她已经66岁，是个退休的老师。
从学校退休后，她全力参与教会慈善事工：帮助单亲家庭，协助癌症病患者和照顾病患的家人亲戚，给邻居贫穷孩子免费补习数学和英文，拜访病人……
后来有一天她述说她自己的故事：
当年，她还未认识天主，很年轻，刚出来教书。认识个男人，不久就结婚了。才知道他是赌徒酒鬼。维持不到1年的婚姻是场噩梦，她来得及逃出来，可是却流产了，从此，她无法再有孩子。
多年以后，她认识了另一个男人，比她年轻8岁，他们结婚，过着幸福美满的生活。维持了10多年，没有孩子，是对模范恩爱夫妻。直到那一年，他被调往都市任职，就在那里买了公寓，而她因为执教，继续留在小镇。每个周末他回来相聚，生活还是幸福快乐的，距离反而让他们增加思念！
后来，她的好友换工到都市去，她过于信任好朋友，提议让她到他们的公寓住下，可以省下生活费。谁知如此的提议却改变了她的后半生。当她知道事实真相时，她深爱的丈夫带着她的好友，还有他们的孩子及她肚子里的第二胎祈求她成全他们，原谅他们……为了孩子，她成全了他们，但是她还深爱着他，他也是如此告诉她的。
同一个时候，她被诊断得了癌症！这突如其来的各方面打击，仿佛世界末日，使她重新调整自己，她给了自己一些时间与空间；在身、心、灵上寻找更深的体会与耐力；在折磨里体会生命的意义，在她仿佛失去一切的当儿，她拥有了一切，天主找到她，而她拥有了天主！
今天，她有充分的理由，很好的藉口继续抚摸，舔触自己的伤口，而她选择了宽恕，接受与爱。她成了负伤的治疗者，认识她的这些年，我看到她在日常生活里替别人抚伤，平凡的动作却让人看到她闪烁的大爱：
• 被家人，孩子放弃，抛弃的癌症病患，她会给他们特别准备事物，载送他们到医院诊疗。
• 给单亲妈妈介绍工作。
• 陪伴被雇主忽略而病危的印尼女佣，女佣临终感激她的陪伴大恩：我们是陌生人，你却好像妈妈般照顾我，我无以回报啊！
• 任何时候，从外地或小镇到大医院治疗，需要住宿时，她都开放门户收留他们。
• 曾经有位很年轻的癌症女病患，被逼锯了一支脚，父母无法陪伴她，是她安排朋友，又陪伴载送她上山回家。
• 又有几次，一些很穷的癌症病患去世了，她亲自替她们洗涤身体，穿衣，安排后事。
• 还有，靠她仅有的退休金，她还是省吃俭用，只为给身边的穷孩子多一些教育费。
她没有孩子，却是桃李满天下。她的故事，精彩的生活，快乐的日子……源自于耶稣，她生活的开始与终结；耶稣是她生命的泉源活水，她可以爱，因为她认识耶稣，她只想每一个人也认识耶稣，藉着她的平凡活出超凡的爱。
看到她，看到夏之炎！
认识她，认识生命艳！
学习她，体验主之颜！
2011年5月8日
（母亲节）
2011年10月31日星期一
《静关 观景 景中镜》
它们不只是在过日子，它们也在生活，实行它们生活的任务：
篱笆……大树……小树……太阳……天空……土地……彩虹……风暴……云彩……雨水……阳光·……它们在默默完成它们该做的……
晨曦？暮阳？
特别喜欢那充满生命力的黄与绿。
《我们把世界看错了，反说它欺骗我们。》(泰戈尔)
"We read the world wrong and say that it deceives us." (Tagore)
《我的存在，对我是一个永久的神奇，这就是生活。》
"That I exist is a perpetual surprise which is life." (Tagore)
《忧思在我的心里平静下去，正如暮色降临在寂静的山林中。》
”Sorrow is hushed into peace in my heart like the evening among the silent trees.“
“遥远”走到近处，已是黄昏，它走得愈远，离得愈近。
篱笆……大树……小树……太阳……天空……土地……彩虹……风暴……云彩……雨水……阳光·……它们在默默完成它们该做的……
"We read the world wrong and say that it deceives us." (Tagore)
"That I exist is a perpetual surprise which is life." (Tagore)
”Sorrow is hushed into peace in my heart like the evening among the silent trees.“
2011年6月1日星期三
SOLEMNITY OF THE ASCENSION OF THE LORD – A: 5th June, 2011 Acts 1:1-11; Ps. 46:2-3.6-9; Eph. 1:17-23; Mt. 28:16-20
SOLEMNITY OF THE ASCENSION OF THE LORD – A: 5th June, 2011
Acts 1:1-11; Ps. 46:2-3.6-9; Eph. 1:17-23; Mt. 28:16-20
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
With the Ascension of Jesus into heaven, which we celebrate today, the life of Jesus comes full circle. He came from the Father in heaven, became man and dwelt among us. He was crucified, died and was buried, rose from the dead and appeared in His risen glory to His disciples. Having accomplished His mission on earth, Jesus returns to the Father in heaven handing over His mission to us to go and make disciples of all the nations. What a precious privilege and an awesome responsibility!
The Ascension of Jesus into heaven is a mystery of hope. Where He the head has gone, we His members hope to follow. Jesus has not abandoned us. In fact, He has promised to be with us always even unto the end of time. He has gone ahead to prepare a place for us so that we His disciples may be where He is. Life on earth is a valley of tears but in heaven there will be no more tears, no more pain, no more suffering, and no more death.
What is the message of the Ascension for us? This feast teaches us that heaven is our real homeland, our final destination. We are pilgrims in this world, passengers in transit. We need to travel light and make sure that we collect and cling to only that which we can take with us into eternity. All the material possessions that we grab and grasp, all the money which we selfishly accumulate, all the good things of life that we hoard rather than share with those who have not – all these we will have to leave behind. Empty handed we came into this world and empty handed shall we leave! It is better not to be encumbered by excess baggage! We need to do load shedding while we are alive rather than be overburdened with loads that we cannot carry in death. When we travel light the journey becomes more pleasant for us and for others as well.
The feast of the Ascension teaches us further that we are citizens of two worlds: the present and the future, the here-and-now and the hereafter, time and eternity, earth and heaven. We need to be immersed and involved in the things of this world but never so engage our energies that we lose sight of the world to come. Foolish is that traveller who gets so distracted by the wayside as to forget his destination!
Finally, the Ascension reminds us that we were made for God. Our hearts were made for God and they will continue to be restless until they find their rest in God. Our human heart is so big that only God can fully satisfy it. The old Catechism put it so plainly yet so profoundly. In answer to the question “Why did God make you? it replied: God made me to know Him, to love Him and to serve Him in this world and to be happy with Him for ever in heaven! Jesus is the Way to heaven. He has taught us that way. He himself has walked that way. It is the way of love. It is a narrow and a difficult way but a sure way and few take it; the way to perdition is broad and easy. Alas many take it!
The holy Eucharist is food for the way. We receive Jesus in Holy Communion which is a foretaste of being with and beholding Him in heaven for ever. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (588 Words)]
Acts 1:1-11; Ps. 46:2-3.6-9; Eph. 1:17-23; Mt. 28:16-20
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
With the Ascension of Jesus into heaven, which we celebrate today, the life of Jesus comes full circle. He came from the Father in heaven, became man and dwelt among us. He was crucified, died and was buried, rose from the dead and appeared in His risen glory to His disciples. Having accomplished His mission on earth, Jesus returns to the Father in heaven handing over His mission to us to go and make disciples of all the nations. What a precious privilege and an awesome responsibility!
The Ascension of Jesus into heaven is a mystery of hope. Where He the head has gone, we His members hope to follow. Jesus has not abandoned us. In fact, He has promised to be with us always even unto the end of time. He has gone ahead to prepare a place for us so that we His disciples may be where He is. Life on earth is a valley of tears but in heaven there will be no more tears, no more pain, no more suffering, and no more death.
What is the message of the Ascension for us? This feast teaches us that heaven is our real homeland, our final destination. We are pilgrims in this world, passengers in transit. We need to travel light and make sure that we collect and cling to only that which we can take with us into eternity. All the material possessions that we grab and grasp, all the money which we selfishly accumulate, all the good things of life that we hoard rather than share with those who have not – all these we will have to leave behind. Empty handed we came into this world and empty handed shall we leave! It is better not to be encumbered by excess baggage! We need to do load shedding while we are alive rather than be overburdened with loads that we cannot carry in death. When we travel light the journey becomes more pleasant for us and for others as well.
The feast of the Ascension teaches us further that we are citizens of two worlds: the present and the future, the here-and-now and the hereafter, time and eternity, earth and heaven. We need to be immersed and involved in the things of this world but never so engage our energies that we lose sight of the world to come. Foolish is that traveller who gets so distracted by the wayside as to forget his destination!
Finally, the Ascension reminds us that we were made for God. Our hearts were made for God and they will continue to be restless until they find their rest in God. Our human heart is so big that only God can fully satisfy it. The old Catechism put it so plainly yet so profoundly. In answer to the question “Why did God make you? it replied: God made me to know Him, to love Him and to serve Him in this world and to be happy with Him for ever in heaven! Jesus is the Way to heaven. He has taught us that way. He himself has walked that way. It is the way of love. It is a narrow and a difficult way but a sure way and few take it; the way to perdition is broad and easy. Alas many take it!
The holy Eucharist is food for the way. We receive Jesus in Holy Communion which is a foretaste of being with and beholding Him in heaven for ever. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (588 Words)]
2011年5月31日星期二
SIXTH SUNDAY OF EASTER – A: 29th May, 2011
SIXTH SUNDAY OF EASTER – A: 29th May, 2011
Acts 8:5-8.14-17; Ps. 65; 1 Pet. 3:15-18; Jn. 14: 15-21
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
Several years back home in India, I was invited to guide an eight-day retreat to a Congregation of Religious Sisters. Attached to the Convent was an Orphanage that provided a home and shelter for little infants. Some of these were single or double orphans having lost both parents; others were babies abandoned either at the convent gate at dead of night or at times sadly found near a roadside garbage dump. I took time off between the spiritual exercises and conferences of the retreat to visit these orphans. I would stoop to carry in my arms one and two of the toddlers at a time only to find a third tugging at my soutane wanting to be carried too! The Sister who accompanied me gave me to understand that this was a pathetic sight. These little orphans had never felt the warmth of a home or the love of a parental embrace. They suffered not only from skin hunger but from a deeper hunger – the hunger for love. They felt lost and lonely, forsaken and forgotten.
“I will not leave you orphans”, says Jesus to his apostles. They had lived with Him for three years; they had listened to His teaching; they had witnessed the stupendous miracles He wrought like calming the stormy sea, feeding the hungry multitudes and raising the dead back to life. They had encountered Him after His resurrection for forty days as He appeared to them. And now He was to return to His Father. He would soon bid them farewell and be taking their leave. Parting is painful. Is it not? They felt lost and lonely, forsaken and forgotten. Is that not the way we too feel at times? We feel orphaned. God seems so far away and even when we pray He seems so distant and deaf. We feel we have been left to fend for ourselves. We feel we are struggling alone. We are tempted to think that we are praying in a void.
“I will not leave you orphans.” How comforting and consoling are these words! Jesus does not leave us orphans. He is with us as He promised to be – yes, even to the end of time. He gives us His Spirit to befriend us, an Advocate to plead our cause and fight our case, the Spirit of truth to guide us. His Spirit will be with us forever. We know from history that empires have risen and fallen, crises and catastrophes have hit the Church, her leaders have proved unfaithful and unworthy – but through it all the Church has emerged safe and strong.
My dear Brothers and Sisters, we must never lose heart or feel forsaken and forgotten like orphans. Not for a moment does God abandon us. We are the work of His hands and He holds us in the hollow of His palms. Can a mother forget her baby or a woman the child she has nursed? Even if these forget, I will not forget says the Lord. In the ups and downs of life, in trial and trouble, in doubt and difficulty, in darkness and despair, God is at work fulfilling His purposes and making our darkest moments our deepest moments. To Him we must turn in prayer surrendering our cares and concerns into His hands and knowing that surrender is the secret to serenity. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (564 Words)]
Acts 8:5-8.14-17; Ps. 65; 1 Pet. 3:15-18; Jn. 14: 15-21
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
Several years back home in India, I was invited to guide an eight-day retreat to a Congregation of Religious Sisters. Attached to the Convent was an Orphanage that provided a home and shelter for little infants. Some of these were single or double orphans having lost both parents; others were babies abandoned either at the convent gate at dead of night or at times sadly found near a roadside garbage dump. I took time off between the spiritual exercises and conferences of the retreat to visit these orphans. I would stoop to carry in my arms one and two of the toddlers at a time only to find a third tugging at my soutane wanting to be carried too! The Sister who accompanied me gave me to understand that this was a pathetic sight. These little orphans had never felt the warmth of a home or the love of a parental embrace. They suffered not only from skin hunger but from a deeper hunger – the hunger for love. They felt lost and lonely, forsaken and forgotten.
“I will not leave you orphans”, says Jesus to his apostles. They had lived with Him for three years; they had listened to His teaching; they had witnessed the stupendous miracles He wrought like calming the stormy sea, feeding the hungry multitudes and raising the dead back to life. They had encountered Him after His resurrection for forty days as He appeared to them. And now He was to return to His Father. He would soon bid them farewell and be taking their leave. Parting is painful. Is it not? They felt lost and lonely, forsaken and forgotten. Is that not the way we too feel at times? We feel orphaned. God seems so far away and even when we pray He seems so distant and deaf. We feel we have been left to fend for ourselves. We feel we are struggling alone. We are tempted to think that we are praying in a void.
“I will not leave you orphans.” How comforting and consoling are these words! Jesus does not leave us orphans. He is with us as He promised to be – yes, even to the end of time. He gives us His Spirit to befriend us, an Advocate to plead our cause and fight our case, the Spirit of truth to guide us. His Spirit will be with us forever. We know from history that empires have risen and fallen, crises and catastrophes have hit the Church, her leaders have proved unfaithful and unworthy – but through it all the Church has emerged safe and strong.
My dear Brothers and Sisters, we must never lose heart or feel forsaken and forgotten like orphans. Not for a moment does God abandon us. We are the work of His hands and He holds us in the hollow of His palms. Can a mother forget her baby or a woman the child she has nursed? Even if these forget, I will not forget says the Lord. In the ups and downs of life, in trial and trouble, in doubt and difficulty, in darkness and despair, God is at work fulfilling His purposes and making our darkest moments our deepest moments. To Him we must turn in prayer surrendering our cares and concerns into His hands and knowing that surrender is the secret to serenity. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (564 Words)]
2011年5月20日星期五
FIFTH SUNDAY OF EASTER – A: 22nd May, 2011
FIFTH SUNDAY OF EASTER – A: 22nd May, 2011
Acts 6:1-7; Ps. 32; 1 Peter 2:4-9; John 14:1-12
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
In the Gospel according to John there are not a few “I am” sayings of Jesus. In the Gospel last Sunday Jesus calls Himself the Good Shepherd and the Gate of the Sheepfold. He also states that He is the Light, the Bread of Life and the Vine. In today’s Gospel, He calls Himself “the Way, the Truth and the Life.” Let us ponder prayerfully each of these statements.
Jesus is the Way. The way directs us to the destination where we wish to go. Jesus is the Way to the Father. He is in the Father and the Father is in Him. No one knows the Father and no can come to the Father except through Him. He is the Way – the safest way but the narrow way. If we walk this Way that is Jesus we will never stumble or go astray. Our life on earth is a journey. We do not know how long or short the journey will be. But we know for sure that the journey will one day come to an end. We know too that every day we move closer to the destination. While we journey we must never lose sight of our destination. How foolish is that traveller who gets distracted by the wayside and forgets his destination! If we walk the Way that is Jesus, the Way to the Father, the Way of love which He himself trod, we are certain to reach our destination.
Jesus is the Truth. He is the Truth that sets us free. He breaks the shackles of falsehood that bind us. He is the Truth that enlightens our minds. He is the Truth that helps us discern between right and wrong, good and evil, virtue and vice. When we live the Truth that is Jesus we become free and fearless. Truth is neither popular nor palatable; but it is necessary. It takes courage to stand up for one’s convictions. No one knows the truth better than the one who lies. Yet, when we lie we live in fear – the fear of being exposed, the fear of being known for who we really are. When we lie we live in bondage for we are entangled and enmeshed in untruth and often to conceal and cover one lie we have to tell another. He who lives the truth comes out into the light. How liberating truth is! That is the fearlessness and freedom we enjoy when we live the Truth that is Jesus!
Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. We cling to life. We preserve, protect and strive to prolong life. We need to. The Life that Jesus offers us is not a life that is earthly but eternal, not a life that will end but one that is everlasting. He came that we may have this life and have it in greater abundance. He shares with us this life for He himself has said: “I am the bread of life. He who eats of this bread will live for ever!” How blessed we are to receive Jesus in the Holy Eucharist! Here we receive Jesus and in Him the foretaste of heavenly bliss, the pledge of eternal life. The moments after receiving Holy Communion are indeed profoundly precious and personal. Jesus is with us and we are with Him. Heart speaks to heart and words get lost in silence!
Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. May we walk His Way. May we live His Truth. May we enjoy His Life. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (595 Words)]
Acts 6:1-7; Ps. 32; 1 Peter 2:4-9; John 14:1-12
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
In the Gospel according to John there are not a few “I am” sayings of Jesus. In the Gospel last Sunday Jesus calls Himself the Good Shepherd and the Gate of the Sheepfold. He also states that He is the Light, the Bread of Life and the Vine. In today’s Gospel, He calls Himself “the Way, the Truth and the Life.” Let us ponder prayerfully each of these statements.
Jesus is the Way. The way directs us to the destination where we wish to go. Jesus is the Way to the Father. He is in the Father and the Father is in Him. No one knows the Father and no can come to the Father except through Him. He is the Way – the safest way but the narrow way. If we walk this Way that is Jesus we will never stumble or go astray. Our life on earth is a journey. We do not know how long or short the journey will be. But we know for sure that the journey will one day come to an end. We know too that every day we move closer to the destination. While we journey we must never lose sight of our destination. How foolish is that traveller who gets distracted by the wayside and forgets his destination! If we walk the Way that is Jesus, the Way to the Father, the Way of love which He himself trod, we are certain to reach our destination.
Jesus is the Truth. He is the Truth that sets us free. He breaks the shackles of falsehood that bind us. He is the Truth that enlightens our minds. He is the Truth that helps us discern between right and wrong, good and evil, virtue and vice. When we live the Truth that is Jesus we become free and fearless. Truth is neither popular nor palatable; but it is necessary. It takes courage to stand up for one’s convictions. No one knows the truth better than the one who lies. Yet, when we lie we live in fear – the fear of being exposed, the fear of being known for who we really are. When we lie we live in bondage for we are entangled and enmeshed in untruth and often to conceal and cover one lie we have to tell another. He who lives the truth comes out into the light. How liberating truth is! That is the fearlessness and freedom we enjoy when we live the Truth that is Jesus!
Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. We cling to life. We preserve, protect and strive to prolong life. We need to. The Life that Jesus offers us is not a life that is earthly but eternal, not a life that will end but one that is everlasting. He came that we may have this life and have it in greater abundance. He shares with us this life for He himself has said: “I am the bread of life. He who eats of this bread will live for ever!” How blessed we are to receive Jesus in the Holy Eucharist! Here we receive Jesus and in Him the foretaste of heavenly bliss, the pledge of eternal life. The moments after receiving Holy Communion are indeed profoundly precious and personal. Jesus is with us and we are with Him. Heart speaks to heart and words get lost in silence!
Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. May we walk His Way. May we live His Truth. May we enjoy His Life. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (595 Words)]
2011年5月12日星期四
FOURTH SUNDAY OF EASTER – A: 15th May, 2011 Acts 2:14.36-41; Ps. 22; 1 Pet. 2:20-25; John 10:1-10
FOURTH SUNDAY OF EASTER – A: 15th May, 2011
Acts 2:14.36-41; Ps. 22; 1 Pet. 2:20-25; John 10:1-10
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
Perhaps nowhere in the world do we see so many sheep as in Wales! You find them in the plains and on the mountains, like fluffs of cotton precariously perched but sure footed enough not to slip or stumble. They graze and grout and appear to be rapt in reflection as they ruminate. For the people of Israel, who were nomads, the imagery of the sheep and the shepherd, the flock and the fold was familiar. To them Jesus speaks calling Himself the Good Shepherd and the gate of the sheepfold.
Sheep are not the dumb animals that we often take them to be. They are discerning for they recognise only too well the shepherd and his voice. They will not heed or hear the voice of strangers. Jesus is our shepherd. We are His sheep. The community is His flock and the Church His fold. The sheep that belong to Him listen to His voice. We live in a world wherein we hear many voices: the voice of the media that pursues and plagues us with its messages even in the privacy of our homes; the voice of self-styled and self-appointed godmen and godwomen peddling their own brand of teaching; the voice of a secular world that is at times so distorted and disoriented that runs contrary to genuinely human and Christian values and virtues. If we are not awake and alert, we can easily be led astray. Where then can we hear the authentic voice of Jesus, our Good Shepherd? We hear it first and foremost in the Word of God. When the Scriptures are proclaimed, Jesus speaks to us. When Jesus speaks to us, our hearts must burn with delight! He alone has the message of eternal life. We hear the voice of Jesus in the official teaching of the Church in matters that pertain to faith and morals. To the Church Jesus has entrusted the deposit of the faith. To the Church Jesus has given the authority of guiding us in our private and public life. We hear the voice of Jesus in the stillness and silence of a well formed conscience. Our conscience is well formed when it is founded on the Word of God and the teaching of the Church. We may deceive the world but we cannot deceive ourselves for when we do wrong our conscience, if it is alive, rightly convicts us.
Sometimes when we drive we meet with sheep along the road that have strayed from the flock and the fold. We are advised to slow down because they are at risk of being run over. These sheep that have strayed have left the flock and the fold. They seem to enjoy a false freedom. But away from the flock and the fold, they remain unprotected and unprovided, exposed and endangered. This is what happens to us when we leave the flock of the community and the fold of the Church. We go our own way and get lost risking our security and safety and exposing ourselves to thieves and brigands who come to steal, kill and destroy our soul. We need to be alert and awake and even if we have strayed we need to return to the flock and the fold.
To conclude, Jesus, our Good Shepherd, does not merely show us the way that leads to pastures of peace. He goes the way; even more, he leads us. Even more, He is the way. If we follow Him, we shall never go astray. We may not always know where He leads us; that does not really matter. What matters is to know that Jesus leads us and that He guides us along the right path. Even if we walk in the valley of darkness we need not fear for He is there with His crook and His staff to give us comfort. Amen.
[St.Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (650 Words)]
Acts 2:14.36-41; Ps. 22; 1 Pet. 2:20-25; John 10:1-10
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
Perhaps nowhere in the world do we see so many sheep as in Wales! You find them in the plains and on the mountains, like fluffs of cotton precariously perched but sure footed enough not to slip or stumble. They graze and grout and appear to be rapt in reflection as they ruminate. For the people of Israel, who were nomads, the imagery of the sheep and the shepherd, the flock and the fold was familiar. To them Jesus speaks calling Himself the Good Shepherd and the gate of the sheepfold.
Sheep are not the dumb animals that we often take them to be. They are discerning for they recognise only too well the shepherd and his voice. They will not heed or hear the voice of strangers. Jesus is our shepherd. We are His sheep. The community is His flock and the Church His fold. The sheep that belong to Him listen to His voice. We live in a world wherein we hear many voices: the voice of the media that pursues and plagues us with its messages even in the privacy of our homes; the voice of self-styled and self-appointed godmen and godwomen peddling their own brand of teaching; the voice of a secular world that is at times so distorted and disoriented that runs contrary to genuinely human and Christian values and virtues. If we are not awake and alert, we can easily be led astray. Where then can we hear the authentic voice of Jesus, our Good Shepherd? We hear it first and foremost in the Word of God. When the Scriptures are proclaimed, Jesus speaks to us. When Jesus speaks to us, our hearts must burn with delight! He alone has the message of eternal life. We hear the voice of Jesus in the official teaching of the Church in matters that pertain to faith and morals. To the Church Jesus has entrusted the deposit of the faith. To the Church Jesus has given the authority of guiding us in our private and public life. We hear the voice of Jesus in the stillness and silence of a well formed conscience. Our conscience is well formed when it is founded on the Word of God and the teaching of the Church. We may deceive the world but we cannot deceive ourselves for when we do wrong our conscience, if it is alive, rightly convicts us.
Sometimes when we drive we meet with sheep along the road that have strayed from the flock and the fold. We are advised to slow down because they are at risk of being run over. These sheep that have strayed have left the flock and the fold. They seem to enjoy a false freedom. But away from the flock and the fold, they remain unprotected and unprovided, exposed and endangered. This is what happens to us when we leave the flock of the community and the fold of the Church. We go our own way and get lost risking our security and safety and exposing ourselves to thieves and brigands who come to steal, kill and destroy our soul. We need to be alert and awake and even if we have strayed we need to return to the flock and the fold.
To conclude, Jesus, our Good Shepherd, does not merely show us the way that leads to pastures of peace. He goes the way; even more, he leads us. Even more, He is the way. If we follow Him, we shall never go astray. We may not always know where He leads us; that does not really matter. What matters is to know that Jesus leads us and that He guides us along the right path. Even if we walk in the valley of darkness we need not fear for He is there with His crook and His staff to give us comfort. Amen.
[St.Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (650 Words)]
2011年5月9日星期一
《女人四季冷暖情》（2）《夏之炎》
《女人四季冷暖情》
（前言）1
今次，我要写关于女人。
4年前，无奈走入这片教土。
4年后，坦然看到世间女人的四季冷暖情。
虽然我国没有春夏秋冬四季之分，但是，生活里就是充满四季的无常冷暖，有情，无情的美丽与丑陋，之间，太多，太多……说不完，数不尽。
因此我写《春之美》，《夏之炎》，《秋之寒》还有《冬之冻》。
这些都是女人的故事。
（2）《夏之炎》
认识她是在6年前，在一个单亲妈妈的聚餐会上。
那天，大约有15位女人在场，而我只认识主人，是她邀请我去的。
那时，我还很年轻。她们都可做我姐姐或妈妈。她们当中有华人，印裔及混种人。有天主教徒，基督徒，兴都教徒及无神论者。我们唯一的共同点是：我们都是女人，都是单身。
而她，那天过后，我们成了很好的朋友。
后来她告诉我：
那天中午，看到你出现在我们的聚餐会，其实我心里很反抗：为什么这个女人出现在这里，现在我想骂粗话都得忍住，在她背后才放出来。唉呀！她这个年轻修女，懂什么男女感情，婚姻，单亲家庭……她能帮我们什么……
后来，我问了她的禁忌问题（后来才知道的！）：你是什么人？
也忘了当时她是如何回答的。后来她才告诉我，当天她没有“火爆”，“刻薄”对待我的问题是因为我用槟城福建华和她谈天。以后我们彼此更熟悉时，和她出去，别人问起她的禁忌问题时，她总会提高声量：我是马来西亚人啦！
原来她爸爸是华人，妈妈是印度人。她受英文教育，说得一口流利的英语，马来语，话语，还有广府话，槟城福建话，朝洲话，客家话……而她皮肤却是印裔靓丽的黑，头发也是靓丽的卷，今年她已经66岁，是个退休的老师。
从学校退休后，她全力参与教会慈善事工：帮助单亲家庭，协助癌症病患者和照顾病患的家人亲戚，给邻居贫穷孩子免费补习数学和英文，拜访病人……
后来有一天她述说她自己的故事：
当年，她还未认识天主，很年轻，刚出来教书。认识个男人，不久就结婚了。才知道他是赌徒酒鬼。维持不到1年的婚姻是场噩梦，她来得及逃出来，可是却流产了，从此，她无法再有孩子。
多年以后，她认识了另一个男人，比她年轻8岁，他们结婚，过着幸福美满的生活。维持了10多年，没有孩子，是对模范恩爱夫妻。直到那一年，他被调往都市任职，就在那里买了公寓，而她因为执教，继续留在小镇。每个周末他回来相聚，生活还是幸福快乐的，距离反而让他们增加思念！
后来，她的好友换工到都市去，她过于信任好朋友，提议让她到他们的公寓住下，可以省下生活费。谁知如此的提议却改变了她的后半生。当她知道事实真相时，她深爱的丈夫带着她的好友，还有他们的孩子及她肚子里的第二胎祈求她成全他们，原谅他们……为了孩子，她成全了他们，但是她还深爱着他，他也是如此告诉她的。
同一个时候，她被诊断得了癌症！这突如其来的各方面打击，仿佛世界末日，使她重新调整自己，她给了自己一些时间与空间；在身、心、灵上寻找更深的体会与耐力；在折磨里体会生命的意义，在她仿佛失去一切的当儿，她拥有了一切，天主找到她，而她拥有了天主！
今天，她有充分的理由，很好的藉口继续抚摸，舔触自己的伤口，而她选择了宽恕，接受与爱。她成了负伤的治疗者，认识她的这些年，我看到她在日常生活里替别人抚伤，平凡的动作却让人看到她闪烁的大爱：
• 被家人，孩子放弃，抛弃的癌症病患，她会给他们特别准备事物，载送他们到医院诊疗。
• 给单亲妈妈介绍工作。
• 陪伴被雇主忽略而病危的印尼女佣，女佣临终感激她的陪伴大恩：我们是陌生人，你却好像妈妈般照顾我，我无以回报啊！
• 任何时候，从外地或小镇到大医院治疗，需要住宿时，她都开放门户收留他们。
• 曾经有位很年轻的癌症女病患，被逼锯了一支脚，父母无法陪伴她，是她安排朋友，又陪伴载送她上山回家。
• 又有几次，一些很穷的癌症病患去世了，她亲自替她们洗涤身体，穿衣，安排后事。
• 还有，靠她仅有的退休金，她还是省吃俭用，只为给身边的穷孩子多一些教育费。
她没有孩子，却是桃李满天下。她的故事，精彩的生活，快乐的日子……源自于耶稣，她生活的开始与终结；耶稣是她生命的泉源活水，她可以爱，因为她认识耶稣，她只想每一个人也认识耶稣，藉着她的平凡活出超凡的爱。
看到她，看到夏之炎！
认识她，认识生命艳！
学习她，体验主之颜！
2011年5月8日
（母亲节）
（前言）1
今次，我要写关于女人。
4年前，无奈走入这片教土。
4年后，坦然看到世间女人的四季冷暖情。
虽然我国没有春夏秋冬四季之分，但是，生活里就是充满四季的无常冷暖，有情，无情的美丽与丑陋，之间，太多，太多……说不完，数不尽。
因此我写《春之美》，《夏之炎》，《秋之寒》还有《冬之冻》。
这些都是女人的故事。
（2）《夏之炎》
认识她是在6年前，在一个单亲妈妈的聚餐会上。
那天，大约有15位女人在场，而我只认识主人，是她邀请我去的。
那时，我还很年轻。她们都可做我姐姐或妈妈。她们当中有华人，印裔及混种人。有天主教徒，基督徒，兴都教徒及无神论者。我们唯一的共同点是：我们都是女人，都是单身。
而她，那天过后，我们成了很好的朋友。
后来她告诉我：
那天中午，看到你出现在我们的聚餐会，其实我心里很反抗：为什么这个女人出现在这里，现在我想骂粗话都得忍住，在她背后才放出来。唉呀！她这个年轻修女，懂什么男女感情，婚姻，单亲家庭……她能帮我们什么……
后来，我问了她的禁忌问题（后来才知道的！）：你是什么人？
也忘了当时她是如何回答的。后来她才告诉我，当天她没有“火爆”，“刻薄”对待我的问题是因为我用槟城福建华和她谈天。以后我们彼此更熟悉时，和她出去，别人问起她的禁忌问题时，她总会提高声量：我是马来西亚人啦！
原来她爸爸是华人，妈妈是印度人。她受英文教育，说得一口流利的英语，马来语，话语，还有广府话，槟城福建话，朝洲话，客家话……而她皮肤却是印裔靓丽的黑，头发也是靓丽的卷，今年她已经66岁，是个退休的老师。
从学校退休后，她全力参与教会慈善事工：帮助单亲家庭，协助癌症病患者和照顾病患的家人亲戚，给邻居贫穷孩子免费补习数学和英文，拜访病人……
后来有一天她述说她自己的故事：
当年，她还未认识天主，很年轻，刚出来教书。认识个男人，不久就结婚了。才知道他是赌徒酒鬼。维持不到1年的婚姻是场噩梦，她来得及逃出来，可是却流产了，从此，她无法再有孩子。
多年以后，她认识了另一个男人，比她年轻8岁，他们结婚，过着幸福美满的生活。维持了10多年，没有孩子，是对模范恩爱夫妻。直到那一年，他被调往都市任职，就在那里买了公寓，而她因为执教，继续留在小镇。每个周末他回来相聚，生活还是幸福快乐的，距离反而让他们增加思念！
后来，她的好友换工到都市去，她过于信任好朋友，提议让她到他们的公寓住下，可以省下生活费。谁知如此的提议却改变了她的后半生。当她知道事实真相时，她深爱的丈夫带着她的好友，还有他们的孩子及她肚子里的第二胎祈求她成全他们，原谅他们……为了孩子，她成全了他们，但是她还深爱着他，他也是如此告诉她的。
同一个时候，她被诊断得了癌症！这突如其来的各方面打击，仿佛世界末日，使她重新调整自己，她给了自己一些时间与空间；在身、心、灵上寻找更深的体会与耐力；在折磨里体会生命的意义，在她仿佛失去一切的当儿，她拥有了一切，天主找到她，而她拥有了天主！
今天，她有充分的理由，很好的藉口继续抚摸，舔触自己的伤口，而她选择了宽恕，接受与爱。她成了负伤的治疗者，认识她的这些年，我看到她在日常生活里替别人抚伤，平凡的动作却让人看到她闪烁的大爱：
• 被家人，孩子放弃，抛弃的癌症病患，她会给他们特别准备事物，载送他们到医院诊疗。
• 给单亲妈妈介绍工作。
• 陪伴被雇主忽略而病危的印尼女佣，女佣临终感激她的陪伴大恩：我们是陌生人，你却好像妈妈般照顾我，我无以回报啊！
• 任何时候，从外地或小镇到大医院治疗，需要住宿时，她都开放门户收留他们。
• 曾经有位很年轻的癌症女病患，被逼锯了一支脚，父母无法陪伴她，是她安排朋友，又陪伴载送她上山回家。
• 又有几次，一些很穷的癌症病患去世了，她亲自替她们洗涤身体，穿衣，安排后事。
• 还有，靠她仅有的退休金，她还是省吃俭用，只为给身边的穷孩子多一些教育费。
她没有孩子，却是桃李满天下。她的故事，精彩的生活，快乐的日子……源自于耶稣，她生活的开始与终结；耶稣是她生命的泉源活水，她可以爱，因为她认识耶稣，她只想每一个人也认识耶稣，藉着她的平凡活出超凡的爱。
看到她，看到夏之炎！
认识她，认识生命艳！
学习她，体验主之颜！
2011年5月8日
（母亲节）
2011年5月6日星期五
THIRD SUNDAY OF EASTER – A: 8th May, 2011 Acts 2:13.22-33; Ps. 15; 1Peter 1:17-21; Lk. 24:13-35
THIRD SUNDAY OF EASTER – A: 8th May, 2011
Acts 2:13.22-33; Ps. 15; 1Peter 1:17-21; Lk. 24:13-35
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
We can easily identify ourselves with these two disciples on the road to Emmaus! Their hopes had been shattered; their dreams had gone up in smoke. They were downcast, dejected, disappointed and discouraged. Their plans had gone awry. They just wanted to forget the reality of the death of Jesus and were walking away from the scene on to Emmaus, some seven miles away. At times, have we not felt that way ourselves? There is so much that we can learn from their encounter with this “Stranger” who walked with them.
The first lesson we learn is that Jesus does not abandon us when we are discouraged, disappointed and in the dumps. He journeys with us every step of the way. He listens to our story. He is with us even in our darkest moments. His presence makes our darkest moments our deepest moments! Jesus was walking with those two disciples and they failed to recognise Him. Their vision was clouded. This can happen to us too: we have met with failure or frustration, death or disaster, trial and trouble, loss and liability. Our vision gets blurred. All sorts of doubts cloud our mind. We think, mistakenly, that Jesus has abandoned us and that we are walking alone. We need to remind ourselves that He is with us always; yes, even unto the end of time.
As these two discouraged disciples walk with Jesus, they pour out their hearts and share with Him their shattered hopes. This is the second lesson that we need to learn. In prayer when we talk to Jesus we need to tell Him just what we are going through. If we are angry with Him, we must tell Him so. If we are burdened with sorrow or weighed down with anxiety, we must let Him know. Keeping our feelings bottled up can only make us feel more bitter and broken. When we tell Jesus what we are really going through, our prayer becomes real and personal. And only when we are ourselves real, we can talk and listen to a real God.
Finally, comes that magic moment when their hearts begin to burn and their eyes are opened. They realise that Jesus was with them along their road as He spoke His word. They sensed His presence when He broke bread. Indeed, He had broken into their battered lives and filled them with renewed hope. They set out that instant and hurry back from Emmaus to Jerusalem seven miles away – a mini-marathon – to share with the eleven and their companions that Jesus had risen and that they had encountered Him. This is the miracle of prayer: it does not change reality; rather, it changes us. We emerge renewed, reinvigorated and revived!
To conclude, how blessed we are to have Jesus with us. At every mass, He speaks to us as the scriptures are explained in the liturgy of the word. Our hearts must burn as we hear Him speak. At every mass, we break bread when we celebrate the Eucharist. In that breaking of the bread, we must recognise Him. Like those two disciples we need to invite Him into the inn of our hearts, to stay with us. He will change despair to hope, darkness to light, weakness to strength and failure to fulfilment. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (556 Words)]
Acts 2:13.22-33; Ps. 15; 1Peter 1:17-21; Lk. 24:13-35
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
We can easily identify ourselves with these two disciples on the road to Emmaus! Their hopes had been shattered; their dreams had gone up in smoke. They were downcast, dejected, disappointed and discouraged. Their plans had gone awry. They just wanted to forget the reality of the death of Jesus and were walking away from the scene on to Emmaus, some seven miles away. At times, have we not felt that way ourselves? There is so much that we can learn from their encounter with this “Stranger” who walked with them.
The first lesson we learn is that Jesus does not abandon us when we are discouraged, disappointed and in the dumps. He journeys with us every step of the way. He listens to our story. He is with us even in our darkest moments. His presence makes our darkest moments our deepest moments! Jesus was walking with those two disciples and they failed to recognise Him. Their vision was clouded. This can happen to us too: we have met with failure or frustration, death or disaster, trial and trouble, loss and liability. Our vision gets blurred. All sorts of doubts cloud our mind. We think, mistakenly, that Jesus has abandoned us and that we are walking alone. We need to remind ourselves that He is with us always; yes, even unto the end of time.
As these two discouraged disciples walk with Jesus, they pour out their hearts and share with Him their shattered hopes. This is the second lesson that we need to learn. In prayer when we talk to Jesus we need to tell Him just what we are going through. If we are angry with Him, we must tell Him so. If we are burdened with sorrow or weighed down with anxiety, we must let Him know. Keeping our feelings bottled up can only make us feel more bitter and broken. When we tell Jesus what we are really going through, our prayer becomes real and personal. And only when we are ourselves real, we can talk and listen to a real God.
Finally, comes that magic moment when their hearts begin to burn and their eyes are opened. They realise that Jesus was with them along their road as He spoke His word. They sensed His presence when He broke bread. Indeed, He had broken into their battered lives and filled them with renewed hope. They set out that instant and hurry back from Emmaus to Jerusalem seven miles away – a mini-marathon – to share with the eleven and their companions that Jesus had risen and that they had encountered Him. This is the miracle of prayer: it does not change reality; rather, it changes us. We emerge renewed, reinvigorated and revived!
To conclude, how blessed we are to have Jesus with us. At every mass, He speaks to us as the scriptures are explained in the liturgy of the word. Our hearts must burn as we hear Him speak. At every mass, we break bread when we celebrate the Eucharist. In that breaking of the bread, we must recognise Him. Like those two disciples we need to invite Him into the inn of our hearts, to stay with us. He will change despair to hope, darkness to light, weakness to strength and failure to fulfilment. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (556 Words)]
2011年4月30日星期六
SECOND SUNDAY OF EASTER: DIVINE MERCY SUNDAY: 1st May, 2011
SECOND SUNDAY OF EASTER: DIVINE MERCY SUNDAY: 1st May, 2011
Acts 2:42-47; Ps. 117; 1 Pet. 1:3-10; Jn. 20:19-31
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
We celebrate today, the Sunday after Easter, the Feast of the Divine Mercy. This celebration of this feast, revealed privately to Sr. Faustina, was promulgated for the whole Church by Pope John Paul II who canonised her and himself is being beatified today.
The Latin word “misericordia” describes accurately the meaning of the word “mercy”. Miseri-cors means having a heart for the miserable. When we speak therefore of divine mercy we mean that God has a heart for us miserable sinners. But the history of “Divine Mercy” goes back to the book of Genesis. When Adam and Eve fell into sin and brought misery to themselves and to the entire human race, God showed them His mercy by promising them a Saviour. When the people of Israel were slaves in Egypt, God showed them mercy by liberating them from bondage. When the people of Israel forgot their God and took to idols, God showed them His mercy by sending His prophets to stir their conscience and bring them back. When the prophets were persecuted and put to death, God in His mercy, sent His only Son Jesus, who emptied Himself and became man. When Jesus was crucified, His side was pierced with a lance and blood and water flowed out. That pierced side is a refuge for us sinners and from that pierced side streams of mercy continue to flow in the sacraments which cleanse and purify us from sin. This is the gift that Jesus gives to the disciples as he breathes on them saying: “Receive the Holy Spirit. For those whose sins you forgive, they are forgiven; for those whose sins you retain, they are retained.” Nowhere do we understand our human misery better than when we make our confession; nowhere do we experience the mercy of God more than in the confessional. It is there in the sacred secrecy of the confessional that divine mercy meets human misery. The tragedy is that when God wants to show us His mercy, we who are miserable do not want to receive it.
We who receive the mercy of God must in turn channel it to others through spiritual and corporal works of mercy. Instructing and comforting others, bearing wrongs patiently and forgiving those who offend us, feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, sheltering the homeless, visiting the sick and the imprisoned and burying the dead – these are the works of mercy in which we must be engaged. This is indeed the context of today’s appeal as we make our offering in aid of the Church in Need. The Church throughout the world is suffering persecution. Three-fourths of all religious persecution in the world is against Christianity. Priests, religious and layfaithful are killed; Churches are being destroyed and their properties confiscated; freedom to practise one’s faith is suppressed. Our prayer and financial contribution can go a long way to assist those in need. Indeed, every little helps!
May we like the early Christian community described in today’s first reading learn to care for and share with others. Having been blessed by God, may we become a blessing to others so that no one may be in need. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (533 Words)]
Acts 2:42-47; Ps. 117; 1 Pet. 1:3-10; Jn. 20:19-31
My dear Brothers and Sisters,
We celebrate today, the Sunday after Easter, the Feast of the Divine Mercy. This celebration of this feast, revealed privately to Sr. Faustina, was promulgated for the whole Church by Pope John Paul II who canonised her and himself is being beatified today.
The Latin word “misericordia” describes accurately the meaning of the word “mercy”. Miseri-cors means having a heart for the miserable. When we speak therefore of divine mercy we mean that God has a heart for us miserable sinners. But the history of “Divine Mercy” goes back to the book of Genesis. When Adam and Eve fell into sin and brought misery to themselves and to the entire human race, God showed them His mercy by promising them a Saviour. When the people of Israel were slaves in Egypt, God showed them mercy by liberating them from bondage. When the people of Israel forgot their God and took to idols, God showed them His mercy by sending His prophets to stir their conscience and bring them back. When the prophets were persecuted and put to death, God in His mercy, sent His only Son Jesus, who emptied Himself and became man. When Jesus was crucified, His side was pierced with a lance and blood and water flowed out. That pierced side is a refuge for us sinners and from that pierced side streams of mercy continue to flow in the sacraments which cleanse and purify us from sin. This is the gift that Jesus gives to the disciples as he breathes on them saying: “Receive the Holy Spirit. For those whose sins you forgive, they are forgiven; for those whose sins you retain, they are retained.” Nowhere do we understand our human misery better than when we make our confession; nowhere do we experience the mercy of God more than in the confessional. It is there in the sacred secrecy of the confessional that divine mercy meets human misery. The tragedy is that when God wants to show us His mercy, we who are miserable do not want to receive it.
We who receive the mercy of God must in turn channel it to others through spiritual and corporal works of mercy. Instructing and comforting others, bearing wrongs patiently and forgiving those who offend us, feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, sheltering the homeless, visiting the sick and the imprisoned and burying the dead – these are the works of mercy in which we must be engaged. This is indeed the context of today’s appeal as we make our offering in aid of the Church in Need. The Church throughout the world is suffering persecution. Three-fourths of all religious persecution in the world is against Christianity. Priests, religious and layfaithful are killed; Churches are being destroyed and their properties confiscated; freedom to practise one’s faith is suppressed. Our prayer and financial contribution can go a long way to assist those in need. Indeed, every little helps!
May we like the early Christian community described in today’s first reading learn to care for and share with others. Having been blessed by God, may we become a blessing to others so that no one may be in need. Amen.
[St. Tudwal Church, Barmouth – Msgr. Alex Rebello (533 Words)]
2011年4月25日星期一
《安全考古地带》6岁了
《安全考古地带》6岁了
感激“电影人”，吉安，如此用心的策划，安排，亲自付费请大家免付费看6部高素质，无法在电影院看到的高度，宽度跨界的外语片电影，诚然，大家热烈的出席电影放映会就是对《安全考古地带》的热爱与支持。期盼，下回大家来个自动自发的“电影付费”文化，可能吗？商业娱乐电影需要消费，更何况是在我国“难得一见”的外语片。
虽然无法马拉松式跑完电影放映会全程，能赶上春天，看到《春去春又来》了，是幸福，是复活，是礼物，是感恩，是学问……
看电影，听他人的故事，看别人的生活；心，思，记忆却是自己的。
当然其他连续4部，暂时还未完整消化。
《春去春又来》
享受悠闲的缓慢，珍惜很多美丽画面，却又欣赏简短，不太多的对白，字里行间的思考空间，重问回味。
自己突然静止了，生怕呼吸声会破坏了这场真与美，又同时担心任何的声音会更丑化故事的深度丑陋与残酷。
题目
禅味浓郁的《春去春又来》隐约看到轮回在运转；仿如一年四季的转换盘旋，永无止境，没有了断；是祸是福，为因为果，起源与终结，仿佛就在人的一念之差,就在开门与关门之间。而故事的镜头春又来，希望再度出现……
春之语：春天仿佛是充满语言与故事的时节，鸟语花香，瀑布清流，充满希望和新生。小僧天真无邪，与天地万物，花草树木，原野山流，还有欢乐笑声是和谐熔融的。然而他还未与水里的鱼，蹦跳的青蛙和在土地上爬行的蛇谈好游戏规则，落得背负杀生之罪，愧疚的重担好像无法还清。但是，自然环境与他自然的笑声至今还在眼前徘徊，耳边荡漾。
夏之欲：夏季是情欲放纵的季节？秋之郁：秋叶飘零，情欲的后果，占有欲与杀欲，令人忧郁和愤怒。冬之喻：寒冷忧郁的季节，年老，病痛，自焚，死亡……而春又到了：重生！生老病死，人挥之不去的定律。
故事
大胆刻画故事，摆设局面的手法：在神圣的庙堂让男女情欲的发生，就在老和尚与佛像同一屋瓦下。
清晰对比：清净神圣寺庙记录男欢女爱。
僧人脱俗的生活与地点引发血腥，残暴，性与情欲的强烈震撼。
外在和谐美与内心软弱丑态的隐喻。
老与少，强与若，苦与乐……
无名人物
人物：老僧人，成年僧人，小僧人， 母女，蒙面女人，小孩……都没有名字，仿佛他们就是我们每一个人。
动物
用公鸡借力把船拖过来。用猫尾巴写字。还有狗……鱼……
其实人与动物间是可以和平相处，彼此互相承担的。
象征景与物
门：没有隔离，没有障碍，空旷自由的空间偏偏有个门（到寺庙的“人生庵”庙堂旁边的两扇门，都没有墙壁，还有门）
门是生命的各个阶段的分割：打开，跨越，进出……改变，成长。抉择开门或开门，辨别善与恶之间。
石头/背袋：包袱 / 重担，有者咎由自取，他人罪有应得？
还有水，阳光，小舟，瀑布，流水……
导演确实悠游慢享春花夏绿……更深如秋叶冬雪，在电影里，于故事中……他不只在日子里导演，他在导演中生活……
反省
特别喜欢幽怨音乐，画面美。
挥之不去的門，在整部电影里开了有关，关了又开，很多次，夸张的以为没有了门故事无法继续讲；有好像，人要知道何时把心门打开，几时又该小心关上，也许，某些时候有必要上锁？心门那把锁会是什么呢？
有时，人又是那么无知与固执，明知无墙，无壁，仍要多此一举，靠门越空去。才本无门，筑门待闭（毙）呀！
閉，无论是有多少的才华，倘若心门，思门没打开，人还是封闭于内！而门打开了，滥用才华，总归跳不出那扇门。
沉浸，沉静，尘净……人生的终极目标是自我成全？无我完权？完全无我？
没有属神的寄托，没有上天的解救，人无法走出自己所制造的生命枷锁，无法宽恕自己的犯错或罪孽；跳不出轮回因果报应。人也好像是只饿狗追着自己的尾巴，拼命，努力原地自追，只以为自己的尾巴是可以解饥。也好象学步的小孩跌倒了，要靠父亲弯腰握着他的小手，拉他一把！
看《春去春又来》，好像在一层层的往内观望自己，越仔细，更恐惧……突然，想借那女人的纱布给自己一些掩饰……自己丑陋的一面；难怪我需要来自上天的恩宠得到救恩。来自至高无上者的仁慈与爱在人性软弱中得以彰显。
《春去春又来》，我仍然沉静于春去春来，開門閉門，門閉門開之间；心却荡漾于生活的春夏秋冬……
感激“电影人”，吉安，如此用心的策划，安排，亲自付费请大家免付费看6部高素质，无法在电影院看到的高度，宽度跨界的外语片电影，诚然，大家热烈的出席电影放映会就是对《安全考古地带》的热爱与支持。期盼，下回大家来个自动自发的“电影付费”文化，可能吗？商业娱乐电影需要消费，更何况是在我国“难得一见”的外语片。
虽然无法马拉松式跑完电影放映会全程，能赶上春天，看到《春去春又来》了，是幸福，是复活，是礼物，是感恩，是学问……
看电影，听他人的故事，看别人的生活；心，思，记忆却是自己的。
当然其他连续4部，暂时还未完整消化。
《春去春又来》
享受悠闲的缓慢，珍惜很多美丽画面，却又欣赏简短，不太多的对白，字里行间的思考空间，重问回味。
自己突然静止了，生怕呼吸声会破坏了这场真与美，又同时担心任何的声音会更丑化故事的深度丑陋与残酷。
题目
禅味浓郁的《春去春又来》隐约看到轮回在运转；仿如一年四季的转换盘旋，永无止境，没有了断；是祸是福，为因为果，起源与终结，仿佛就在人的一念之差,就在开门与关门之间。而故事的镜头春又来，希望再度出现……
春之语：春天仿佛是充满语言与故事的时节，鸟语花香，瀑布清流，充满希望和新生。小僧天真无邪，与天地万物，花草树木，原野山流，还有欢乐笑声是和谐熔融的。然而他还未与水里的鱼，蹦跳的青蛙和在土地上爬行的蛇谈好游戏规则，落得背负杀生之罪，愧疚的重担好像无法还清。但是，自然环境与他自然的笑声至今还在眼前徘徊，耳边荡漾。
夏之欲：夏季是情欲放纵的季节？秋之郁：秋叶飘零，情欲的后果，占有欲与杀欲，令人忧郁和愤怒。冬之喻：寒冷忧郁的季节，年老，病痛，自焚，死亡……而春又到了：重生！生老病死，人挥之不去的定律。
故事
大胆刻画故事，摆设局面的手法：在神圣的庙堂让男女情欲的发生，就在老和尚与佛像同一屋瓦下。
清晰对比：清净神圣寺庙记录男欢女爱。
僧人脱俗的生活与地点引发血腥，残暴，性与情欲的强烈震撼。
外在和谐美与内心软弱丑态的隐喻。
老与少，强与若，苦与乐……
无名人物
人物：老僧人，成年僧人，小僧人， 母女，蒙面女人，小孩……都没有名字，仿佛他们就是我们每一个人。
动物
用公鸡借力把船拖过来。用猫尾巴写字。还有狗……鱼……
其实人与动物间是可以和平相处，彼此互相承担的。
象征景与物
门：没有隔离，没有障碍，空旷自由的空间偏偏有个门（到寺庙的“人生庵”庙堂旁边的两扇门，都没有墙壁，还有门）
门是生命的各个阶段的分割：打开，跨越，进出……改变，成长。抉择开门或开门，辨别善与恶之间。
石头/背袋：包袱 / 重担，有者咎由自取，他人罪有应得？
还有水，阳光，小舟，瀑布，流水……
导演确实悠游慢享春花夏绿……更深如秋叶冬雪，在电影里，于故事中……他不只在日子里导演，他在导演中生活……
反省
特别喜欢幽怨音乐，画面美。
挥之不去的門，在整部电影里开了有关，关了又开，很多次，夸张的以为没有了门故事无法继续讲；有好像，人要知道何时把心门打开，几时又该小心关上，也许，某些时候有必要上锁？心门那把锁会是什么呢？
有时，人又是那么无知与固执，明知无墙，无壁，仍要多此一举，靠门越空去。才本无门，筑门待闭（毙）呀！
閉，无论是有多少的才华，倘若心门，思门没打开，人还是封闭于内！而门打开了，滥用才华，总归跳不出那扇门。
沉浸，沉静，尘净……人生的终极目标是自我成全？无我完权？完全无我？
没有属神的寄托，没有上天的解救，人无法走出自己所制造的生命枷锁，无法宽恕自己的犯错或罪孽；跳不出轮回因果报应。人也好像是只饿狗追着自己的尾巴，拼命，努力原地自追，只以为自己的尾巴是可以解饥。也好象学步的小孩跌倒了，要靠父亲弯腰握着他的小手，拉他一把！
看《春去春又来》，好像在一层层的往内观望自己，越仔细，更恐惧……突然，想借那女人的纱布给自己一些掩饰……自己丑陋的一面；难怪我需要来自上天的恩宠得到救恩。来自至高无上者的仁慈与爱在人性软弱中得以彰显。
《春去春又来》，我仍然沉静于春去春来，開門閉門，門閉門開之间；心却荡漾于生活的春夏秋冬……
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